Stephen Fry

Today I am supposed to attend an evening with Stephen Fry who also apparently is Bi Polar too.  I saw him talking about it in his documentary.  He doesn't take drugs for it, he said. which made me think he must have the less extreme type of Bi Polar, lucky bastard.  You could not survive my mind, without drugs.  You'd end up in an institution for the criminally insane, or you'd be dead.  Or just in regular prison..  I guess if you were very rich and didn't take your meds you could survive but you'd need 24/7 minders.

Today from mid morning until almost six pm I have been feeling very down, and suicidal.  I decided I didn't want to go see Mr Fry, even though I had been looking forward to it for weeks.  I even queued for tickets - on the phone that is.  But I rang as at 8.57, 8.5.8 and 8.59 a.m. the first day they were on sale just t ensure I got tix.  I have been ecstatic about seeing him live.  I have always been in love with his brain.

Mr Fry has a Blog too - he has millions of followers.  Here's his blog link:

http://www.stephenfry.com/blog/#more-19

But earlier I started feeling like I couldn't go.  I felt really down, suicidal.  Really deeply so.

Then I wondered about my meds?  Had I taken everything?  I checked my dispenser.  Nope - forgot the Lex.  No wonder I was down.

Those chemicals, they matter.